I am not a rude woman.

Nor am I a “Bitch”.

But when you do me wrong,

I am not so easy to forgive.

      Running around with my heart.

Empty you have left me.

Used and fully enraged.

I am not waiting any longer.

             So I say,

with my most sweet,

most lady-like voice.

FUCK YOU.

Is that hard to swallow?

Posted on March, 14th 2012 at 11:24 pm

what is the limit to your beauty and grace? it seems to reach an infeasible place. not to be confined to any one space. endless is the talent that flows from your face. it spews forth on the world without any control. no one can stop you and your magnificent soul. my heart is weak you have taken your toll. forever ill admire you, you fill in the hole. No more words can describe, what i feel now inside, feelings put there by you, and the world that you view.

its blinding in here where my heart lies so filled with love. i need it to live for i wish to die. on occasion. but then… you enter my mind and all that remains is us locked forever in chains.

Troublesome truths, they bind us. Ive only begun my travels, and already you lead the way. There its no condition to my faithfulness, no limit to my adoration. This hold you have on me is cripiling, but darling I’m here for the riddeling. Iwant to ask you to choose, old or new? But do I have the right, to ask for all of you? Speaking of beauty and grace, only your eyes see my true face.. Tell me again of forever, and what you feel inside, tell me again if our love will last… 

you want all of me as i do you but how much can you really do? you own a flower and can help it grow, fully blossom and develop but in actuality you cant know. all the cells are uncontrolled by you, it moves itself but wat can you do? it sprouts and takes over the window box and you could i suppose block out the sun but why suffocate a living thing when youve already won? the flower cant run away, its stuck to you just like night is to day. so calm your nerves and know this until you clip the roses your rose is named chris.

With this rose, I will hold all of my dreams , with this water, I will watch it grow, with these eyes, I will watch our future unfold. You ask of me to answer your questions, to give you something I don’t have .. All I know is that this is real, and ill hold this rose until I can hold it no longer. I love you Christopher.

i love you too Marrissa

Posted on March, 11th 2012 at 5:50 pm / 1 note

Sometimes I fall apart

and my seams rip all the way through.

My my mind wanders on without me

leaving sunken eyes blank and empty

staring.

Behind your wilting garden

watching your footprints fade

slow dancers swallow

all my faithful love,

forgetting.

Why we parted ways

I will never try to guess

thoughts sinking rocks

I refuse to wade any farther

darker now than ever before,

fallen.

Angel of my demise

I never loved before your lies

at the mercy of your dreams

forever I would swim

with no fins

drained of hope and the will to win,

sacrifice.

My happiness was short-lived

followed by fear

I walked a thousand miles

in broken shoes,

I fell on sharp glass

and watched my blood run away,

alone.

And sometimes I am whole

swallowed up in your muscled arms

carried away in the wind

of  your warm breath kisses,

My heart takes a dive

into your calloused palms,

together.

Posted on March, 11th 2012 at 1:34 pm

Sometimes I fucking hate you. But darling. I am in love with you. So deeply infatuated, I am smitten. You hurt me so sweetly, And love me so freely. I know this isnt always easy. Honey bun, youre sticky, Im stuck on you completely. Damnit, please dont take me for granted….

Posted on February, 13th 2012 at 12:02 am

I never told you:

that I was perfect,

that I was afraid of love,

about my fear of hurt.

I never told you everything,

because I knew you would leave.

now I’m here,

waiting for a phone call,

dreading that text message.

You told me I was beautiful,

that was no lie.

But now I feel ugly,

and alone in this mess,

caught up in my emotions…

I always denied your compliments,

but secretly,

they fueled each smile…

every moment when I felt low,

they brought me back up.

I never told you:

this would be easy,

that I was perfect,

how many flaws I truly have.

I never told you everything,

because I don’t know myself…

Told me not to worry,

you did.

Held me when I was drifting out to sea,

you did.

But I never told you:

that I was a heavy stone,

sinking ship sailing alone,

I never told you,

that I was only afloat in the Dead Sea.

Salty tears carry me,

pushing me off this pedestal. 

Posted on February, 2nd 2012 at 3:20 am

I can’t sleep But still I dream. With eyes wide open I feign. I can’t speak But still I scream. With lips pad locked I need..

Posted on February, 2nd 2012 at 3:15 am / 1 note

I’ve mastered many things in my life but none are as important as you.i love you with everything that is in me. Every fiber burns with a passion I have never felt before. You are object of that passion.

Posted on January, 23rd 2012 at 10:48 pm

I’m sorry I’m not perfect,

I’m sorry that I’m such a crazy girl.

I have so many flaws,

so many secretes and regrets.

I’m sorry I get mad.

I’m sorry I’m not always clear,

I’m sorry I don’t have the answers.

My heart is damaged,

but still its holding on.

I can’t always please you,

but I’ll try my best.

I’m sorry I sometimes make no sense,

sorry that my words come out wrong.

But know this,

with every fiber of my being,

I love you,

I care for you so deeply. 

I have fallen,

and I don’t plan on getting up.

I’m in love with you,

and everything that comes with you.

I promise you my forever.

Just take me as I am.

Posted on January, 4th 2012 at 10:23 pm / 2 notes